What is This?

You aren’t a lover.

You aren’t really a friend.

We used to date off and on for years.

We don’t share our deep thoughts, feelings, passions, dreams.

We don’t share each other’s joys or sorrows, let alone ever talk on the phone just to hear each other’s voice.

We just say hi in text once in awhile and usually comment on the weather.

I honestly don’t know where to put you.

We aren’t really in each others lives but we aren’t completely out of each others lives either.

We are NOTHING alike yet we are in a weird way. The way we look at what we are…. Not really anything but not really nothing.

I don’t know… is it better without you or better with you in my life?

Only you know.. only you will continue to show me. So I can understand what this really is.

Currently… you aren’t really anyone but a random text. Not really anyone significant yet also not really insignificant.

Your just a guy I loved along time ago. A friend I cherished long ago. A person I thought was someone I wanted a forever with.

Now though… you really aren’t any of those.

Yet, I still enjoy knowing how you are doing in this crazy little life. That you are happy and I hope maybe you have found a way to love someone…. Deeply and with longevity. Just because you weren’t right for me, I still hope someone out there is right for you.