The Day the World Changes

This is a moment in life we see ourselves more clearly. We may not like what we find, but the real fact is…. This moment we are living in… with quarantines, loneliness, lack of human contact, socialization, and just flat out boredom, is making us confront our true human souls.

I for one, have never felt this type of loneliness. It has challenged me to my core. I consider myself to be an Extrovert/Introvert, meaning I need people for periods of time but I also need alone time to reenergize. I am in a campground with my 22 foot home, completely alone. No dog for pets and comfort, no people to hug or chat with, no significant other, no children to entertain, just ME. It is HARD! There is no where to go and explore new places, go have a drink or lunch with new friends, even human touch when you are alone has a new look. People run from a hug or closeness instead of the warm embrace needed (I know it is necessary however). DAMN… what a world right now!

I am in an emotional turmoil with myself. I have lists of things I seem to never have time to do and suddenly I have all this time but zero desire to do them (but I am pushing myself to do most).

We need to look into our deepest self and decide how to fulfill our  own needs.

I spend a lot of time with nature right now and all the wildlife. I believe that even the critters around me are lonely and sense we are on a equality in this new strange world. We truly need each other.

I have been going through a lot lately. I have had to look at myself and I don’t always like what I see. I am changing, growing, learning and humbled in loneliness.  I have been told a few things that hurt my soul lately, yet has made me deeply look at myself in a new light.

Loneliness changes your needs. It makes you see things in truths. It makes you see who offers real action and who offers words. Words can always be words but actions are what the heart knows, feels and listens to. I am all about actions… it is my compass to understanding and feeling.

We build fears up in the isolation, desperate for comfort, desperate for connections, desperate for touch, desperate for actions, desperate for truth. This beautiful time of isolation forces us to feel more, see more, accept truths. We find our relationships will grow stronger or fall apart completely. We find the people in our lives are either reaching out to check on us, or leave us entirely empty. We understand that our children perhaps are not quite as perfect as we once thought haha,

We discover our lives in the quiet, our needs, our values, our fears, our love, our laziness, what we really true want and need to feel alive.

I have changed. I am seeing where I need work and where I thrive.

We are all connected in this world right now. Scientists from ALL over the world are uniting and working together to find cures, vaccination’s,  to stop this crazy virus! There has never been a time in history where the entire world is fighting for the same thing and working together!

Yet, we as humans are fighting for the basic essentials because we are afraid. Lonely. Bored. Confused. Some connecting at deeper levels, building closer relationships, showing each other they are THERE for each other and SAFE. Other’s drown and fight each other ,making the relationship show its limits of feeling safe.

It is a transformation within ourselves that will show where we need to work on ourselves, who we can trust, what our needs and desires are, how driven we are, how we are emotional equipped or not for a loneliness we have never endured before.  It is in the quiet that we grow the most. A life where we have not been able to slow down to appreciate or see within ourselves, is now forced on our souls.

This is a point in life we need to Stop, Love, Grow, Accept, Change, BE.

It is a gift!  I am challenged in what I have found in myself and will be rechecking within myself and make the necessary changes to be my personal best.

Let us all grow and surround ourselves with the love that is REAL, SAFE, COMFORTING! Friends, family, lover…. Whatever it may be… it is time to really look at our connections and appreciate the TRUTH of who is really our tribe of LOVE. Including loving OURSELF!!

BE SAFE, BE LOVED!

Love and Light my beautiful friends! Please be safe!

Nomadic soul seeker