I’ve been doing a lot of soul searching lately on what it means to have and be a friend.

A friend through my eyes, is a person you trust will all your good, bad and crazy. Someone who accepts you where you are in life and continues to grow with you. A person that sees where you have been, where you are now and encourages where you are going.

Someone that reciprocates communication, love, understanding and wants to be apart of your life. One that makes you feel loved at a deeper level than superficial. Simply reaching out and sharing life both ways.

I have let go of alot people lately because it was so one sided. I was the one reaching out and keeping the communication going, asking questions about how they are, letting them know I am here for the good news and the bad news that life can throw at us.

I have realized that many only were reaching out if I did. When they were board or lonely. When they had time to fit me in instead of making the time. There is a difference in that. Quite a profound difference in fact.

The lack of being there for me to share my highs and lows and vice versa. However that was extremely limited. I found myself alone when I needed a friend.

So I decided to go quiet and observe.

It was surprising how quiet my life got. Not in a bad way, just an interesting way.

Through that silence, I’ve decided most had to go. For our friendships had stalled to only live in the moments of the past or their boredom. Not in the present time of the ever changing circumstances.

So the are exiled. I know the ending of their journey with me.

I hold no resentment or anger towards them. They simply needed to go without further contact to my life.

Friends are extremely important to me, equally so, are those connections.

I found myself more lonely holding onto them. Questioning my worth through their eyes. A place I definitely do not flourish nor have the opportunity to be the best me.

I am freeing myself of all those that no longer choose a two way road. To quiet my own soul from the noise of guessing and feeling left out of all I seek in connections.

So goodbye without a goodbye.

We no longer need each other and that is alright. May you find your own tribe that adds to what your idea of life is with them. You have made it clear I am no longer part of that journey.

I am done feeding the souls that no longer feed mine.

Peace, love and light 🙌

Nomadic Soul… done seeking.

You are either in or out… no fluff, no grey, not when it’s convenient for you. For I have made time for you and have been there… for you.

That is no longer a welcomed one way street. So brace yourself for the silence of me… that you so clearly wanted.