So many nights I looked up at the moon remembering our fire nights together.

I was so in love with you Shreky.

Problem was… I didn’t love myself and because of that I didn’t have boundaries.

Looking back I see how you never really loved me.

I made it all up in my head and heart.

No one that truly loves another would have said the things you said to me. Done the things you did to me. Always searching and flirting with other women. Hiding me. Never introducing me to anyone. Never taking me anywhere.

My gosh… I thought you hung the moon and that I was lucky to know you.

Now, I know I was lucky to meet you.

I had to look within myself to see how much I needed to love myself. Without your presence in my life I would not have seen how toxic a human can be towards my soul.

Sadly, You didn’t hang the moon… the moon I sat crying under for over three years… that comforted me in a dream that wasn’t real.

You were lost. Like me.

I can’t blame you for being lost, for I was lost too when we met.

Difference was… I wanted to be found.

You wanted me to get lost.

You were my fears of loving to deeply.

You made me believe I was wrong all the time in my own emotions and that I was crazy in not trusting you. I wasn’t trusting you. I was trusting myself. My own heart. Trusting my love for you.

Oh how I wished you could have seen your part in our crazy relationship and that we could have sat down and just talked real. That you could have trusted ME that much.

You were the darkness that put out my light.

I could no longer see who you truly were, as you changed so often and quickly. I became a mirror for you. I lost myself reflecting to you what you said you wanted.

I grew to understand that you were sent to me so that I could understand what love really is.

Love of myself.

You are YOU.

My twin flame.

My opposite love.

Goodbye ❤️

I no longer see you as someone to be with my love, but as the sadness that came from my love

Yet I still and always will….love you.